Just a few random things that are going on in our lives right now... hum, let's see... I think I'm over the whole wanting another baby thing. Not forever, just for now. Not that I don't "want" one, but it just doesn't make me sad that my husband thinks I'm absolutely CRAZY for wanting one. I think that if I had a different life maybe it would be good, but with this life that I do have we are good where we are at. And speaking of Lun, she's a doll! She's growing way too fast! I still think of her as a newborn.
Brinley's a doll too! I don't know if it's winter or the baby or what, but that girl is full of energy. We have to try really hard to be patient with her because in all honesty, it's kind of annoying sometimes. I should take that back because I really am grateful to have such a beautiful, healthy little girl that is so full of life. Oh and she has/had a boyfriend. I think Dustin and I talked her out of it. It's her best friend. He told her he would play on the playground with her at school if she would be his girlfriend. At first I didn't think she knew what that meant so I asked her and she said, "it means we are in love." That scared me. So we talked and I think they are just friends now. Seriously, she's 4! Oh, and she is now a level 2 gymnast. We are proud of the little stinker.
Work is crazy! I'm way busier that I want to be and I hate that my job is requiring some extra time on my part because that means less family time, but I really do have a great job. Yes, there I days I wish they would just fire me, but my job really is a blessing and I know that things will slow down when rates go up. The other day I worked on a mortgage with a 2.875 interest rate! That's crazy! Once all of this madness is over no one will ever need to refinance their mortgage ever again. Who knows, maybe in that life I will have a dozen of kids and be a soccer Mom.
Food. I love food! And if you know me, you know I'm kind of a food snob. I study food, read about food, watch food documentaries... a lot. Can't think too much about food, because what people call food that really isn't food drives me CRAZY! And yes, I do like some of that non food too much. I hate to cook for people. Partly because I just do and partly because I never know what to cook. We don't eat the traditional American Diet at all and when I cook for people I feel like I have to cook "normal" food and I hate doing that. I cooked for Dustin's family when they were all here for the funeral and I made quinoa. Most of them hadn't heard of it and none of them had tried it before. Not sure if they liked it. At the beginning of the year we bought one of these
I have wanted it for so long. It's so amazing! I love it and use it almost everyday. We drink green smoothies everyday and speaking of green smoothies, I love this book
My friend Jan and I even went to one of Robyn Openshaw (the author)'s classes. Oh, and on the way to the class we stopped at Honeyville Farms. I can't believe I have never been there before.
Since we are talking about food we might as well talk about exercise. I love the boot camp I am doing at my gym right now. It's nothing I couldn't do myself, but I just wasn't. It's really fun to workout in a group sometimes. I always meet really great people. And, I have been trying to talk them into a boxing class taught by Christian. We do boxing in boot camp and I've taken boxing before, but never by anyone that actually "knows" how to box. Christian is and excellent boxer and Dustin and I loved the boot camp he used to teach (we used to go for our date). They actually listened to me. He said they are probably going to start one up. So excited to take a class from someone that actually knows what he's doing.
Money... Dustin and I have always been pretty smart with our money regardless of how much or how little we have. Dustin likes to study it. He reads financial books and got me hooked on Dave Ramsey. Not that we are on his plan, I still haven't read his book, but I love to listen to him. One thing we have never done before is spend cash. We now go to the grocery store with our weekly grocery budget in cash. It's a simplifies my life. I like it.
My husband. I would dare say our relationship is better than it has ever been. Interesting how we are constantly learning and growing in this life. How we are humbled and become better people. Interesting how relationships have seasons. And speaking of seasons, I love this...
FOUR SEASONS OF A TREE
There was a man who had four sons. He sent them each on a quest, in turn, to go and
look at a pear tree that was a great distance away. The first son went in
the winter, the second in the spring, the third in summer, and the youngest
son in the fall.
When they had all gone and come back, he called them together to describe
what they had seen. The first son said that the tree was ugly, bent, and
twisted. The second son said no--it was covered with green buds and full
of promise. The third son disagreed; he said it was laden with blossoms
that smelled so sweet and looked so beautiful, it was the most graceful
thing he had ever seen. The last son disagreed with all of them; he said
it was ripe and drooping with fruit, full of life and fulfillment.
The man then explained to his sons that they were all right, because they
had each seen but Only one season in the tree's life. He told them that you
cannot judge a tree, or a person, by only one season, and that the essence
of who they are--and the pleasure, joy, and love that come from that life--
can only be measured at the end, when all the seasons are complete.
If you give up when it's winter, you will miss the promise of your spring,
the beauty of your summer, fulfillment of your fall. Don't let the pain
of one season destroy the joy of all the rest. Don't judge life by one
difficult season. Persevere throughout the difficult patches and better
times are sure to come some time or later.
Author Unknown
Mom's cancer... this is something I don't talk about a lot on here. Or really at all. That's because it's not only really personal to me, but to her also and I want to be respectful of that. That being said, I spend a portion of every single day being sad. Every single day I think about her. A friend of mine actually said to me, "I wish it was my Mom and not yours." sometimes I wish it was someone else's mom too. It's not fair. I feel like my children are being robbed out of a Grandma. She's still a really great Grandma, but her energy can only be pulled in so many directions. The other day I got a call from my Mom, it was Valentines day and I just spent so much time wishing I could take some of that from her. If even just for one day. It humbles me. I can't imagine living in a body that did not allow me to do all that I want to do. I wished so much that I could be sick and puking and in pain and tired for her so that she could even just have one day of health back, one day to do all that she wanted to do. I felt guilty preparing dinner for my family, knowing that she probably would not even be able to eat that night. I don't understand life, but I believe that things happen for a reason. And as I thought about my poor Mom and her struggles in life I couldn't help but think of my Savior. I thought of him in the Garden of Gethsemane, he knew every struggle we would go through in this life and he WANTED to take some of that from us. I believe as he was going through those things he saw my face and he saw your face. When he was feeling what it felt like to have a Mom diagnosed with stage four breast cancer he saw my face. And when he was feeling what it felt like to have stage four breast cancer he saw hers and he wanted to take some of that pain from us. This is just and example. This isn't the only hard thing I have had to deal with in life, it's just what I am dealing with right now. I have been through a lot in this life. We all have. I'm just thankful we don't have to go through it alone.
And... my house is a complete mess, has been for two weeks. Now you know everything about me.
